“sometimes I feel like I can’t do it anymore”

thewilliambeckett:

The end of TAI and the FUTURE

I’m having a hard time starting this.  I could say something like “pride comes before the fall”, or “the skill in attending a party is knowing when to leave”.  Rather, I’m going to just come out and be honest.  The September show in New York was the last show for The Academy Is.  While this is a very difficult decision to make, I believe in my heart that it is the right decision to make.  For years there has been a growing distance felt within the band as we’ve progressed, both geographically and artistically and instead of trying to patch the holes we’re left with, my heart tells me its time to move on with the next chapter in our lives.  I want to thank the fans, the world’s greatest, for all of your love and support over the years.  You helped shape who we are today and will continue to do so as we move toward what’s coming up around the corner.

While this is the end of 8 unforgettable years of TAI, this is not the end of my story.  Not by a long shot.  I will be working on a new record in the coming months and have never felt more freedom and inspiration to create my best and most honest work yet.  Obviously that means we won’t be going out on the Jack’s Mannequin tour but you should all still go since Andrew is one of our best friends and puts on an amazing show - you can get tickets here: http://www.jacksmannequin.com/tour

Many of you have told me before how my words have helped you through tough or transitional times in your lives.  You are the reason I make music.  I hope I can count on your support as I embark upon new and exciting waters.

You can count on mine.

-William

This is one of the worst news that I’ve heard this week.

This post of William/Bill Beckett made me break down once and for all…!

It seems as if all of my favorite bands are all in separate directions.

It all started with my first ever favorite band, Fall Out Boy. Then, Jon Walker and Ryan Ross leaving Panic At The Disco, Zac and Josh Farro leaving Paramore..

But what hurts the most is to know that you’re never gonna hear one of your favorite bands again. The Academy Is… is officially ending and there’s nothing we can do about it.

I rely myself with bands and singers. Or music, in general.

Music is probably the most important thing in my life. I couldn’t even imagine a world without music. without a simple symphony, rhythm, harmony, etc… MUSIC MEANS ALOT TO ME!

I wish I could thank my favorite singer/s. I wish I could thank my favorite bands, for how they’ve inspired me and changed my life.

I don’t really know what to feel or how to express my feelings about the TAI break up. I’ll miss them.

Nothing really lasts forever.

Throughout The Years - Tenth Grade (by otherjuicystar07)

I don’t really know how many times I’ve already watched this video.. But every time I had nothing to do, and wanting to watch something on youtube, I would end up watching Blair Fowler’s Throughout The Years - Tenth grade video which basically talks about her life in tenth grade being bullied…

I guess by watching this video always makes me feel stronger…

It hurts to become a victim of bullies.. Yes, I’ve been bullied. Not only by students in my school, but also teachers. Blair must be lucky to have those teachers who probably saved her life.

I didn’t understand why they hated me so much, and up until now looking back at it I still don’t understand why they were doing that to me.

Pushing me onto the wall, dumping me while walking, spitting on my uniform while walking, and so many horrible words that you would hear everyday I would go to school. But I had to fight to survive. I had the most awesome friends who were there for me. Who were always there for me on the times when I didn’t know what to do with my life anymore. I’ve always had questions to myself like Blair said, “why are you doing this to me? I didn’t do anything to you!”. But there weren’t any answers. All I know is that I was the only one who had a different nationality.

For me, no matter what people do to you. You still don’t know who they are. Whether they do bad things to you or not, hurtful or not. you don’t have to judge them. I don’t ever judge people unless I knew what they’re background looks like. I’m not saying that it’s wrong to protect yourself. But what I’m trying to say is just believe in “Karma”.

There’s a 100% percent reason why they were doing this. But the most common reason I could think of is insecurity. They want to over come that and feel better about themselves by tearing you down. Every people has their own insecurities and were not alone. there’s probably something in us that makes them angry, even if we aren’t doing anything bad to them.

If you’ve been a victim of bullies, or being a victim of bullies. STAY STONG! Please just stay strong!! You just have to believe that everything will pass and nothing lasts forever. Whatever type of bullying you are facing right now it isn’t gonna last forever. Everything will be okay. In a blink of an eye everything will change in your life and you would probably forget about them.

You could meet the most horrible people in the world. We are part z of those people and they’re a part of us too.

These are the people who people call “people”. All are different.

Yes :)

She’s person.. She get hurt too..

Believe me or not, this made me cry.. And no one has ever done that to me before

“You will never destroy the kingdom that is my fans” - Lady gaga

YOU WILL NEVER DESTROY MOTHER MONSTER.

(Source: youtube.com)

OH MY GOSH! HER MAKE UP! GORGEOUS!

This is so fashionable. Reminds me of Marie Antoinette for reasons..

Catchy song.. But hellish lyrics! When I first heard the song title I was like “ohh.. Judas! cool!” but it didn’t turn out the way I expected it to be. Gaga’s satanism is really showing up! She wasn’t this creepy awhile ago. No wonder she easily became an international superstar from being a stripper, it’s like she came from nowhere try to hypnotize her little monsters, Scary as it may sound, but I think I’m under Gaga’s powers.

Not that I’m being religious here, but I’m relying on what Katy Perry said;

“I’m a big  fan of Gaga, but I’m also a big fan of Jesus.”

People who knows me, knows how much I am OBSESSED with Gaga. But somewhere around this song/video Gaga is starting to scare me. She is creeping me off. But I’m still a fan of her, and will be a fan of her. I’m not gonna stop listening to her. Let’s see what’s gonna happen with her next.

I will still listen to this song, you can’t blame me the song is indeed catchy. But I might still listen to it with fear and guilt because [I’m still in love with Jesus].

Lyrics to Lady Gaga’s Judas:

Ohohohoh
I’m in love with Judas

Ohohohoh
I’m in love with Judas

Judas! Judaas Judas! Judaas
Judas! Judaas Judas! GAGA

When he comes to me I am ready
I’ll wash his feet with my hair if he needs
Forgive him when his tongue lies through his brain
Even after three times he betrays me

I’ll bring him down, bring him down, down
A king with no crown, king with no crown

[Chorus]
I’m just a Holy Fool, oh baby he’s so cruel
But I’m still in love with Judas, baby
I’m just a Holy Fool, oh baby he’s so cruel
But I’m still in love with Judas, baby

Ohohohoh
I’m in love with Judas

Ohohohoh
I’m in love with Judas

Judas! Judaas Judas! Judaas
Judas! Judaas Judas! GAGA

I couldn’t love a man so purely
Even darkness forgave his crooked way
I’ve learned love is like a brick you can
Build a house or sink a dead body

I’ll bring him down, bring him down, down
A king with no crown, king with no crown

[Chorus]
I’m just a Holy Fool, oh baby he’s so cruel
But I’m still in love with Judas, baby
I’m just a Holy Fool, oh baby he’s so cruel
But I’m still in love with Judas, baby

Ohohohoh
I’m in love with Judas

Ohohohoh
I’m in love with Judas

[Bridge]
In the most Biblical sense,
I am beyond repentance
Fame hooker, prostitute wench, vomits her mind
But in the cultural sense
I just speak in future tense
Judas, kiss me if offenced,
Or wear an ear condom next time

I wanna love you,
But something’s pulling me away from you
Jesus is my virtue,
Judas is the demon I cling to
I cling to

[Chorus]
I’m just a Holy Fool, oh baby he’s so cruel
But I’m still in love with Judas, baby
I’m just a Holy Fool, oh baby he’s so cruel
But I’m still in love with Judas, baby

Ohohohoh
I’m in love with Judas

Ohohohoh
I’m in love with Judas

Judas! Judaas Judas! Judaas
Judas! Judaas Judas! GAGA 

Creepy lyrics. But I can’t deny how the song is stuck on my head and wanting to play it again!

Why is Panic! At The Disco so stylish?

They’re one of the most stylish bands I’ve ever seen.. I think that the old fashioned concept fits Brendon’s personality. This is my most favorite video theirs EVER.. So far.

Brendon’s dance moves are like “THE BOMB”

Is there one thing that Brendon Urie CAN’T do? He’s perfect!

<3

This is my cousin getting ready to fly all the to the UAE, to… of course, WORK! And by looking at this, my heart started to tear apart.

This is how we live. This is our lives.

We go back to our home for a little while to be happy with the people who really makes us happy, but in the end we have to go back and fight. Fight for everyone! As in everyone that we love for them AND for us to survive. You have no idea how scary this life is, but we can survive no matter what.

This caused me so much sorrow just by looking at these pictures. I know how she felt. But she had to go because she didn’t/doesn’t have a choice.

Do we need to make choices just for us to live? Do we need to think twice to choose either this or that? To think which is which? And wonder what is what? I don’t think we have to. But we must have to. No one knows what’s gonna happen in the future, EVEN PSYCHICS DOESN’T KNOW WHAT WILL GO ON! We’re all humans! We all have problems, we all have insecurities, we all have ugliness no matter how beautiful people think you are, we all have beauty no matter how ugly people think you are, we all break down, we all cry but we all SURVIVE! Look at you. Look at yourself while they say those things, you can smile, you can laugh. And look at you! Your standing up! So since your standing up, stand up for what you believe in. Stand up for the people you love, trust, and work for and you’ll be a better person.

If you are one of those people who always leave and cry because of leaving; Cry once but don’t cry forever. You’ll maybe be sad by thinking about them. But all you’ve got to remember is; This is what God had planned for us. We have some things planned for ourselves and for the ones that we love; But God has better plans for us and others.

You’ll see that one day, these will all go away. And it will be all worth it.

It’s almost 3am and couldn’t get any sleep. It’s time for me to get rest.

To be honest, I can’t decide. Because there are a lot of famous people who’ve influenced me. I have lots of idols. There’s Lady Gaga, Katy Perry, Hayley Williams etc…

But if I had one person to choose I’d say Audrey Kitching is my role model :)

Blair Fowler. A youtube beauty guru, Under the username of [Juicystar07].. She’s one of my favorite youtube beauty gurus. If not my MOST favorite youtube beauty guru EVER!.. and this video of hers made me think that she is really a strong person… Makes me think that all of us undergo into something that’s difficult then we could imagine.

She could’ve died!

I can’t really imagine myself being sick. I can’t imagine my figure of how I am if ever I have a severe illness.. Among all of us three sisters I’m the only one that never had any IV fluid stuck in my vain, thankfully. Not that I’m bragging about it but it’s true. I’ve only had common illnesses such as fever, cold, cough etc… Of course I’ve had injections, blood tests etc.. But as in IV fluid? I have never experienced that, and hopefully I will never will.

I don’t really think that I can easily be ill, though.

I don’t really think that I have a healthy body either :/